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My name is Krista and
I am seventeen years old. When I was about two
years old, my mom and my dad split up. My mom
remarried a guy who wasn’t very good and didn’t
treat my mom good, so she left him when I was
five. A few months later she met my step dad a
the church we were going to. They got married
when I was in first grade and my life was pretty
good then. We went to church all the time. I
couldn’t listen to worldly music or watch bad
stuff on TV. I had a pretty good family except
my dad wasn’t there. My dad would come get me
sometimes and we would go fishing at my uncle’s
or something, and everything would be fine. But
then sometimes he would come get me and you
could tell he had a hangover and he would be
really ill, and it would scare me. I can
remember one Christmas he promised me all this
stuff and I didn’t even hear from him for a
while. I was really hurt inside because I
wanted my dad. When I was about ten, my mom sat
me down because she had to tell me something,
and she turned on the TV and my dad was on the
news being arrested for murder. I was so angry
and hurt inside. At school I would just laugh
about it, but really it wasn’t funny to me. My
dad got out of jail and went to prison when I
was eleven.
For a while
everything was okay, but by the end of the sixth
grade I started smoking. That lead to drugs and
then to drinking. I would just do that stuff
when someone else had it, but after a while I
couldn’t live a day without getting messed up.
That’s all my life revolved around. I wasn’t
happy with anything in my life. I felt like my
step dad didn’t love me and my dad didn’t care,
so when I was thirteen, I went on
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on antidepressants,
mood stabilizers, and stuff for
panic attacks all at the same time. I didn’t
even act right; I was so out there, and they
still didn’t make me any happier.
In ninth grade I got
caught with some stuff and got expelled from my
school and put on probation, which didn’t help
anything. I was looking for love and ended up
getting in a bad relationship. All we did is
party and get messed up. We argued and fought
all the time. On my sixteenth birthday, he got
put in jail, so that was my opportunity to get
away from him. It didn't work because as
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he got out he found me. The only way
to get away was to find another guy.
When I turned
sixteen, I rebelled against my family even more
and ended up getting kicked out of my house with
someone I hardly knew. They ended up being
really bad on drugs, so I got even worse.
A month and a half later I moved back in with my
parents and went back to the same guy.
Three weeks later I got kicked out again and
moved in with him. My life was in such a
mess. I couldn’t get out, but I wanted to.
I was miserable and hurting.
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satisfy me, but I didn’t know
how to make my life better.
In October 2005 I got
in a bad fight with my “boyfriend” and the
police were called and I
almost got arrested. My parents showed up, and
I got my stuff and went to live with them
again. I thought I was happier there, but there
was still something missing. About three or
four weeks after I moved back in with my mom,
she told me we were going to hang out as a
family. It was one week before my birthday, and
I was mad because my step dad was there and I
didn’t want to be around him. I just wanted me,
my mom, and my sister to do something. They
told me we were going to the mountains and ended
up bringing me here. I was really mad at first,
but I was glad to be away from the people I had
been around.
About a month after
being here, God showed me I was lost. God
started putting me under conviction and after I
was here for about three and a half months, on
February 23, 2006, God saved me. He has changed
my life so much. My worst day being saved is
better than my best day being lost. I use to
try and make my life better, but since I’ve been
saved I don’t have to try because God has done
it for me. I can’t ever imagine going back to
the life I use to live. God hasn’t only helped
me, but He has worked in my family since I have
been here. My parents are faithful members of a
church now. I also want to thank God for my
mom. She has been the only one to stick by me
through everything, and she just wants me to
live for God. All I can say is God is good! He
took someone like me whom everyone had lost hope
in and changed my life so much. |
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